Once again, I have slumped into the mode of slacking on this God seeking journey. I am so ashamed to have to admit that. I just stay so tired right now that I can't drag myself out of bed in the mornings and then as soon as Riley goes to sleep at night, off to bed I go. In the God Seeker book, it talks about sacrificing things to spend that time with Him...TV time, shopping time, computer time. I honestly don't watch much TV and I rarely shop. Now I do spend some time on the computer with my blogs but really not much at all. The biggest sacrifice for me is my time sleeping! Lazy, I know. Deep down I think that I might not feel so tired if I were cutting out 30 minutes of sleep to spend time with God because his joy and peace would totally reign in my life. Make sense...less sleep, more time with God, more energy.
It's embarrassing to have to admit such a weakness but maybe the embarrassment and bearing my soul to readers will give me a kick in the right direction. Once again, I'm going to try...
Just a quick note about this week's Bible study, we had 11 which was great. This included two new people who I hope will decide to return. I did not feel confident with my preparation going into this week's study...no handout, just planned to walk through the lessons for the week. My personality almost forces me to have an outline or a list for everything to keep me focused so I felt like it could have gone better. We had good conversations about our bodies being the temple thanks to the new covenant so we take God's presence with us everywhere we go. Yet it is still a good idea to set a place aside as your "tent of meeting" so there's a clear location and purpose for spending time with God. That was one of the best things that I ever did as a step in the right direction toward seeking God. But of course, my laziness has kept that tent empty too many times in the past few weeks...
Anyway, the class went okay but my perfectionist personality really felt like I could have been more prepared and done a better job. Just pray that I kick this laziness bug to the curb this week!
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Don't beat yourself up. God knows right where you are and will meet you wherever you seek Him. Maybe on your way to work, in the shower, seeking Him while your doing those daily things. It's not that you give up on your tent of meeting, but it doesn't have to be only your tent of meeting either.
ReplyDeletePraying for you, {as you and} God are growing some one special!! :)