A Summer of Change

After the women's conference at the beginning of the summer, my husband, daughter, and I went on a trip to Branson, Missouri. When we arrived and saw what a beautiful lodge and setting on the lake we'd be staying at I couldn't wait for that first morning to sit on the balcony. The morning came and I enjoyed a cup of coffee and started my journey through the God Seeker study. The focus of this Bible study is Exodus 33, specifically Exodus 33:7 and the example of Moses' relationship with God and how he sought God. I needed just that example. The first chapter focused on accepting the invitation to seek God. As I explained in my previous post I have never known how to truly seek God and have a specific time and place set aside for Him so I quickly accepted the invitation.

That morning was a glorious time of digging deep into my soul and revealing my own fears and misconceptions of seeking God and crying out to Him. Sitting on that balcony I was overwhelmed by the beauty of His creation and amazed that someone so awesome wanted insignificant me to seek Him and have an intimate relationship with Him. I suddenly realized that just as I use to crawl up in my daddy's lap (sometimes still do!:) and cry or laugh or just talk, God wanted me to do the same thing with Him. His lap's even bigger though! :)

As my side of the conversation came to an end I decided to just HUSH my mouth and listen...my husband would probably say that doesn't happen very often! I just sat in silence which was uncomfortable at first but then I heard God's voice speak three things ever so softly...
1. This is a summer of change. You and your husband will learn to trust each other and Me more.
2. You are a ship but I am the sails guiding the direction where you should go.
3. Trust Me, lay everything at my feet and I will give you rest. I know what is best for you and will take care of you.

To give you a quick background to why those words were so encouraging...we had put our farm up for sell and started trying to get pregnant earlier this year. Nothing seemed to be happening in either department. I tend to be a worrier and want to try to MAKE things happen on my own and that's exactly what I was doing in both these situations. Well that's not of God...

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?" Matthew 6:25

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5

So when God spoke those three things to me I NEEDED IT! I had kept myself so worked up I was no where close to having peace in my life. Reading it in the Word should have been enough, but hearing God's voice definitely made it real to me.

Now we are at the close of summer and I can surely say it has been a summer of total change for my family. My husband and I have totally learned to trust each other more and definitely God. We've had some trials that would have floored us with the weak faith and trust in God we had before this summer. But because we've drawn closer to Him, He's upholding us and teaching us. We are so expectant now of what mighty things God is going to do in our lives. When the day comes, be it tomorrow or a year down the road, when our farm sells and we get pregnant we will be awe-struck at God's awesome hand in our lives. In the meantime, we will continue to seek God and trust in Him completely for His perfect will in His perfect timing...